Saturday, December 13, 2008
heys .
read thru a few entries in the past .
saw Mr Eddie Koh's photos' captions .
hmmm .
feeling kinda emotional now .
no im not emo !
there is a difference !
lols .
n the thing thats on my mind now ..
my girl .
so yeah . this is gonna be for her .
i titled the entry:
the unofficial official .
guess you'll be the only person who understands it .
or perhaps .. you're too dumb to comprehend it huh !
hahs ..
nvm, i'll explain to you ..
maybe it all started since long ago .
perhaps when we were so enthusiastic in scap .
fate made me chose council instead of basketball .
and there we started knowing each other .
cant recall if we worked together in scap .
but i sure remember you running for the prestigious position, President .
vaguely in my mind .
but i think you said something about your jovial character that will allow us, the 8th by then, to progress well together .
if i never remember wrongly , i voted for Zhilun then you .
some part of me went crazy n skipped Wilfred .
im so happy that Wilfred is the President while you became my comm's head .
looking back at the times ..
i think u wasnt too impressed with me huh .
hah .
bet your impression of me must be:
aiya . this guy .. slack and wont do work one la .
right ?
=p
but as the term progressed .
as the biggest committee shrinked ! lol .
we grew closer as a committee .
and by the time orientation`08 ended ..
we were pretty much bonded together .
oh . especially when the entire comm is only left with you and us, the confused guys .
meetups became more friendly . no longer the hi and byes .
meetings became fun and exciting at some point !
guess the only time i really helped out when you asked for help was when we were doing the cards thingy for the various ccas .
haha ! oh yea . that just proved the point that im darn slacker . lol .
oi . u didnt use the quotes i had to find lo ! idiot .
then came the cheers ..
that was really enjoyable .
=)
after council ended .
guess you started to feel something huh ..
i really didnt notice .
but at that point of time .. frankly ..
nothing would have happened i guess .
random messages u sent me .
inclusive of all the encouragements .. slowly built things up ?
hah ..
FINE ! since i already said so much ..
you asked before but i didnt tell ya . =x
i confessed . there is this period of time i had a minor crush .
yes. i did .
but i quickly dismissed it myself .
because of the messages and times i see you in the library i guess .
at that period of time .. i really looked forward to seeing ya there .
but i realised u seldom study in the library .
thats probably how i managed to dismiss the thoughts and feelings i have that fast .
A levels came fast and furious and i had no time to think about other stuffs given my results .
so yeah ..
after which taiwan trip finally came and thats when it all started .
but at the start .. none of this occur to me .
i mean .. it just didnt occur to me that we'll get together .
and moreover .. a close friend of ours was there getting ya .
i was all out to help him .
seriously .
but at the last 2 days ..
somehow . i figured that we actually clicked .
the time that this went through my mind .. i was still amused by it .
you have been asking and if you really want an exact time i started to think about this .
its when you took the photo of the kinder surprise choc at ximending .
the one which i used the choc to cover my eyes and had the toys in my mouth .
hahaha !
guess both of us felt it after we came back .
and i further confirmed myself at the airport .
when we were shopping at the dutyfree shop .
kept asking ya to go into the shop bcos i wanted your opinion .
i wanted to get something that you liked .
prom came and we already know what we have in mind .
its just waiting to happen huh ..
butter factory just made both of us sure of this without words .
and then ..
finally .
4 December 2008 .
your birthday;
your favourite day;
my happiest day;
our day .
the overly excited you started it .
admit it !
and we got together, unofficially, officially .
unofficial bcos no question was popped .
we both knew .
now do u understand the title, dumbdumb ?
for all the emo times that happened after that ..
it is just me adapting .
trust me i'll get used to your way of living .
soon,
i promise .
and this isnt all about me okays ..
you have your part to complete it:
to understand the complicated me .
=)
and all the insecurities that you feel .
i understand .
and i know its me thats the cause of it .
time will prove that im right .
i'll make sure of that .
Natalie,
this just feels different from before .
YOU
are the cause, the element, the catalyst, the key to the difference .
i've said it before and im gonna tell you once more ..
i believe this will last .
i really do .
=)
torn