Friday, December 28, 2007
hello.
sorry. been weeks since i came.
just too busy with stuffs. by stuffs i mean council/orientation1.
i haven really enjoy my holiday thoroughly.
it aint that bad. but its not a wonderful one.
i haven do any of my hol assignments.
so i dont understand y im not enjoying it.
but whatever it is..
im the clan master for BETA ! not BATA. read properly.
n ogls in the clan r rather fun.
most have the same character as me. in some ways..
so i blended in very well. n easily.
not much of a problem. as till today.
cos we'r the more 'greyish' side people.
so hopefully.. we wont run into any problems when o1 starts.
n yup. had our performance rehearsal today.
went pretty fine. just tat i need to rehearse on the introduction part.
other than that.. i guess the clan's performance is pretty cool !
n also. the opening performance.
was labelled as kiddy.
ahhh!
dun understand wad it really meant.
but just str away shouted back something idiotic.
being the typical me.
but after that. realised that i need to like show more of myself.
n ACT out the role.
not just narrating my lines.
okays. enough of performance.
wanted da blog bcos of another reason.
something i mentioned before.
its about exco.
i haven get over it.
n i doubt i'll never get over it until i march into the 9th investiture.
i really thought i got over it.
until today.
i feel disappointed with myself.
okays. again.
the gap/difference really showed today.
i am so not involve. in another word. so EXTRA.
it doesnt concern me in ANY way.
if i know den orh.
if i duno den things still move on.
exco is so involved.
in everything.
n hse capts..
hmmm. let me count the activities we have..
one two three....
wait. let me count again...
one two three four...
oh please ! 2 hands can finish counting ?!
n probably still have a couple of fingers for u to play around with..
n activities we have are 50% completed by the tchers..
so thanks lor..
now we can count the activities that we do in 1 hand.
nope. i never type wrongly.
ONE hand.
that is BELOW FIVE. >5
whatever it is. im too lazy to type.
the involvement rate is wayyyy toooo different.
there is nothing for me to step on.
n even if i hav the ability..
i have NOTHING to excel on.
n yup. i can start something on my own what.. i can create something.
i gotta admit. im not at that level.
in fact. no where near that level.
aaahhhhhhhh. WHATEVER !!
bye.
torn
Wednesday, December 05, 2007
heys.
yeah. so im back from japan trip.
its pretty good.
or maybe i should say its very good !
everything there was cool.
scenery and air there is awesome !
if i have the chance.. i'll definitely wanna visit the place again.
n after i came back...
been busy with council stuffs. o1 coming soon ~
guess we really need to buck up. ogl camp is just a week away?
ytd was j2s grad night.
"momento"
was the theme.
guess it was a pretty good job done.
Daniel Ong was the host.. n he's just GOOD !
stayed over at frien's house after tat.
was supposed da go clarke quay n stay over.
but duno what happened n we got to his house.
played Risk till morning n we went for breakfast.
we talked alot.
n i really mean alot.
we sat at the coffeeshop for like 1hrs+ ?
our topic was on the council.
somehow.
at the end of it. on my way home.
as usual. i was stoning and reflecting.
n i thought of something the SCTAs once told us.
the council will really start to bond in the december break.
where we will work on o1.
n that is the most crucial time of our council term.
tat will make or break the council.
guess tats really the case.
i mean. i haven feel so involve in council before.
this is like the first time.
n i really enjoy what is happening around now.
had o1 meeting in the afternoon.
somehow. we were talking about house capts n the mindsets of certain people.
we were saying some of the people are not happy with their roles.
as they were not assigned to their preferred role.
n bcos of that. they dont perform to their standard that he/she can achieve.
we were saying that alot of people have potential.
n potential to be very very good n lead very well.
but bcos of their assigned role..
they quieten down.
bcos they'r unhappy with their assigned role..
they only follow and fade off..
Mr Tong was spear heading the discussion.
n he was saying something like no matter what..
the roles have to be filled up by someone.
it was clearly stated out right from the start.
oh. mayb im using the wrong word. mayb i shld be using 'we' instead of 'they'.
i have never like my role as a house capt.
n i do feel that i have the ability to be in the exco.
i never once doubt my ability n quality.
im a ego freak/bastard you see.
n bcos im a hse capt.
i dont work that hard anymore.
im just following whatever instructions that are directed to me.
when there's work to do den i'll do it.
n so. i have never enjoyed council.
its just an ordinary cca to me for the past months.
but after today. i guess it'll change.
Mr Tong is right.
sorry but its fixed.
i cant change anything now.
what i shld do is to get myself use to my role..
n work from there.
i think im pretty used to being the hse capt alr.
n i dont have much time left to get use to the role.
come april/may.. it'l be invest alr..
so yup. im gonna work hard from now on..
at the end of my term.
i'll be able to tell myself that i have enjoyed this year.
BLAHS !!!
byebyes.
it rained.
heavily.
torn