Sunday, February 24, 2008
heys!
yup. finally got the time to rest n chill.
finally.
since last thurs. before the start of ogl camp.
so yup.
orientation has ended.
one event down from my hand. another 2 to go.
x-country is nxt friday. amazing race is tentatively on 12 April.
im supposed to feel happy.
isnt it ?
why am i not ?!
damn.
another event down would mean im closer to my end of term.
i'll so miss council work after i step down.
i swear.
sighs!
mixed.
so should i feel happy or not?
ah well.
orientation was another great n new experience.
3rd time being a clan master.
4th orientation i've attended.
but 1st time i hav to work so hard to make sure i enjoy myself.
first orientation. o1`07
as a participants. all i had to do was to just chill n relax.
was in "nathan"
so lucky to have Shawn as clan master. everthing was GREAT ! war cry is EXCELLENT !
second orientation. o2`07
clan master for "myre"
learnt alot from this.
saw how different things were from another position.
orientation 1`08
2nd time being a clan master.
this time round for "beta"
this is the best!
ogls in the clan are GREAT!
i didnt had to worry about anything.
i only had to go in to bring everyone to the highest.
n admin n money are so well taken care by the admin queen Janice.
everything was a BOMB.
totally enjoyed myself.
orientation 2`08
3rd time being a clan master.
for "gamma" this time round.
supposed to be well-drilled and able to handle all situations without much trouble.
but no.
i even had problems during ogl camp!
didnt really make the best out of it i guess.
ogls are not really very proactive.
so, for the first time, i had to go in frequently to get everyone going.
especially during o2 itself.
im not saying that they are not good.
they'r definitely a great bunch to work with.
but maybe my pairings this time round are wrong.
so yup. at the finale. i was rather emotional.
i have to stress this. for the first time.
i really had to work myself off to make sure i get to enjoy my night in finale.
first 2 days in orientation wasnt tat great.
im like the only one shouting cheers?
really aint cool.
perhaps it was because i missed the clan time during the 2nd day.
had to attend the mayor dialogue.
no choice but to go.
dont know what happened during the clan time.
but i guess it wasnt as productive as i hoped it would have been.
pioneers din really know the cheers and mood wasnt that good.
n dance was only like 1/3 done.
so i was super worried.
i want to enjoy myself. n of course along with the ogls and pioneers.
so by pre-finale. the clan must be super high!
but till the 2nd day. i dont see it happening.
so at the end of the day. talked to the ogls.
3rd day. things became so different.
ogls started to get things going.
the difference was so significant.
had a short conversation with this pioneer. n he saw the change too.
everyone enjoyed the finale.
it was WONDERFUL !
all credits to the ogls.
thanks.
so yup. explaining why i was feeling emotional.
its really the first time i had to work this hard.
for the past few times. all i had to do was to just slack n enjoy myself.
so to see everyone enjoy n get so high at the finale.
im really errr.... ecstatic!!
thanks!
i really enjoyed myself.
finale was a rock man.
tarzan n jane.
i so love it !
woohoo.
3cheers to ogls n pioneers !
n everyone who constantly encouraged me to keep me positive and not give up.
alright.
x-country up next.
hope it'll run smoothly.
n i'll be left with amazing race.
but this means council term will end.
soon.
sighs.
ahhh.
i wanna end the entry on a good note.
so im not gonna talk about it.
till the next time.
life's good.
as of now.
busy.
yet motivated.
sayos.
=)
torn
Sunday, February 17, 2008
heys.
just back from ogl camp.
i have alot alot alot of things on my hands now.
x-country, amazing race games, studies, assignments, homeworks.
but i dont care. i cant concentrate if i dont 'pen' this down somewhere. i'll go crazy.
n i know im like the last person in council or in the world to have the right to say the following. but somehow.. somewhat. reality hit Andy. hard. n he realised if nobody is gonna do anything to this. the family tat grew him up is gonna break apart real soon.
but maybe im over-sensitive. n over-reading things.
so at any point of time u feel wronged or whatever. feel free to press 'alt-F4' to leave this page. n im sorry about it.
this ogl camp has been a totally new experience. n i really mean DIFFERENT.
perhaps its because we'r having a new system.
n another reason would be because this o2 is at a freaking hell wrong time.
its halfway thru the term. n common test is right about the corner.
in actual fact. another 3weeks?
somehow. the teachers were right.
the debrief on the first night.. they were saying they feel that the mood of this ogl camp is weird. its not like the usual feeling. i totally agree with them.
right from the start of the camp. my mood was wrong. i was feeling so moody n irritated. guess the hse capts r feeling more or less the same as me.
we had a mutual consent to postpone all the deadlines for amazing race and carry on with x-country first. because x-country will happen earlier than amazing race so we thought that we should finish up the planning for x-country first before proceeding to plan amazing race.
n the fact that j2s are currently having their tests n catchin up with their works didnt help matters. totally.
but the teachers ic of amazing race had a talk wit the hse capts. n reason things out. like why we shouldn't postpone the deadlines n lalala..
we were obviously upset about it. but at the same time. we also feel disappointed with ourselves due to the lack of proper planning on our side.
n before that.. had to do out the x-country board. so was already rushing things n already feeling quite frustrated.
so we went into the camp with these feelings.
maybe because that was how we started. thats why things just got worst n went out of hand.
i was talking to a scapper in the evening.
was talkin n talkin.
when i suddenly realise..
i really matured alot since the start of the investitute. i still remember that time at LT3, even before the invest. kind of like the 'elections' day? the time when we came out with the exco.
i did my part in running for exco.
i want to be Welco head.
but i was rejected.
n Andy Tham wasnt even in the names of the short-listed people.
he was SUPER disappointed n sad. n he still is.
i walked out of the LT. straight away.
such a childish thing to do.
i flared up outside the LT. while they'r doing their thing in the LT.
i stayed outside. talking to another frien.
i rmb Nic came out n consoled me. oh. Nic is the 7th Pubco head.
but ytd night. when we were discussing about the issue of whether j2s shld join in the opening performance.. i managed to keep my cool. i even had to play the role of 'chiller' n calm people down.
i've learnt how to stay cool at approriate times. n listen to others opinion n reflect on whether their ideas will improve things.
ever since i joined council. i always find myself becoming more n more matured.
this wont happen without the help of the 8th Student Councillors.
this big family really helped me alot.
but for the first time. this big n happy family is facing a major problem.
we are starting to shoot down each other, criticise each other.
i dont know why. i have the feeling that its breaking up anytime soon.
i hope im wrong.
nobody is perfect.
n i guess everyone is so tired after the energy-DRAINING camp that we cant process our thoughts properly.
humans being humans. we'r selfish to a certain extent.
when we'r at our most vulnerable time.. we'll only think for ourselves.
when we feel so frustrated n tired n tied up by all our worries for our studies..
we'll lose our usual self. the composed n always-thinking-for-others self..
so all i hope now.
is for all 8th to reflect about what happen during the camp.
n what we went through AS A COUNCIL.
from investiture to orientation 1 to orientation 2 now.
are we really gonna split up n continue to shoot each other after what we'v been through TOGETHER !?
let us go back to our usual self.
the composed, caring n wonderful 8th Student Councillor.
n whatever the decisions u guys make. i respect it.
u'll have your own reasons.
i trust everyone to make the most sensible choice.
life has its ups n downs.
let us stick together n go through this down period we'r experiencing.
"We start out strong, and we'll end off even STRONGER !"
torn