your presence made this worthwhile .
you didnt make my heartbeat stop .
instead, you took those heartbeats n breaths away .
Thursday, June 26, 2008
hellos .
a few papers are gone .
but they'r all 'goners' ..
dont know what thehell word is that . but yar ..
chem paper 3 is DISASTROUS .
im prob gonna get single digit .
its upon 60 by the way ..
its that bad .
even if whatever stuffs i wrote are all correct ..
i still wont pass the paper .
thats how bad it is .
damn it .
):
Ms Au is gonna screw me upside down .
endless remedial will be waiting for me .
sighs .
phy paper 3 is as usual .
i'll fail it .
sigh .
but at least i know it wont be that bad .
its the first time i feel so scared after a paper .
as in .. i know i'll fail .
but it wont be that badddddd ......
chem paper 3 this time round will be a BIG JOKE .
i swear .
so yea . studied hell lots for math .
at least i could do the paper .
im prob gonna get a E ?
we shall see .
im gonna chill a little now .
yeah . i know this is the 89923525235times i said it ..
but well ..
at least im motivated after the stupid chem paper 3 .
i'll try my best to study everyday from now on .
n yes .
this goes on after mid year ends !
hah .
i'll TRY !
=D
super tired now .
boooo ..
oh yar .
been going to the gym n swimming pool very often these days .
like everyday in fact .
its like gym on one day n swim the next day .
haha .
but im still feeling very weak .
i think im just too lazy .
even though im there ..
i dont push myself ?
lazy ah !!
lol .
ah well ..
this tiredness is making me emo .
maybe i should go n sleep now .
shall wake up later for Spain's match later on .
Fernando Torres !
=D
but he doesnt perform as well at international stage .
hmmm . sounds familiar huh .
i think one of his teammates at club level is like that too .
oh yar ! Steven Gerrard !
lol . lame... but yar .
er . there have been alot of critics about both of them at international stage and i was just reading about it awhile ago .
one of the pool's webby columnist was talking about it .
but one of the 'dont perform as well' but yet the team is achieving good results .
whats wrong man ?
so yup ! im all for the both of them .
L O V E S ..
=D
hahahaha !
okays . i better get going .
study hard !
bye all !
to walk pass and not notice you is way too tough .
just tell me how i can make you notice me ?
sighs ..
torn
Saturday, June 21, 2008
heys .
boooo . bad day today . havent really studied . n i think im gonna blank out during the papers . im so dead . damn it .
sigh .
went out wit my sis n bro in law . was at ikea at Tampines . n i duno why thehell there are sooooo many couples there . ):
anyways . was out yesterday with the clique . Clare's n Serene's birthday ! Happy Birthday girls . =D
met Vincent . been quite awhile since i last saw him n talked to him . he's attached now man . wooo . actually i saw him the previous day . but didnt exactly talked to him cos his girl was there . so didnt wanna disturb . haha . we chatted all the way from Marina to Panjang . had a good time man . its been awhile since we last caught up .
conclusion from the talk . i grew up . hah ! at least i know what is right n what is wrong now . im glad . (:
so yea . realised that my expectations have been increasing too . just like the number of ERPs in Singapore and the GST here . lol . dumb examples . but yar ..
social circle is now smaller too .
due to some monkey reason .
but i think im glad about it ..
hah .
at least im enjoying what i have now .
(:
went through all the things i remembered about the past while i was on my way back .
ha .
it was bad .
very bad .
):
could have avoided many unnecessary actions .
but well ..
dont cry over spilled milk ?
lol .
im done for the updating about my life part .
next ..
oh . song lyrics !
the song is Brian McKnight's Back at One .
enjoy . (:
It's undeniable... that we should be together... It's unbelievable how I used to say that I'd fall never The basis you need to know, if you don't know just how I feel, Then let me show you now that I'm for real... If all things in time, time will reveal... Yeah...
One... you're like a dream come true... Two... just wanna be with you... Three... girl it's plain to see... that you'r the only one for me... and Four... repeat steps one to three... Five... make you fall in love with me... If ever I believe my work is done... then I start Back at One (yeah)
So Incredible... the way things work themselves out... And all emotional, once you know what it's all about babe... And undesirable... for us to be apart... Never would of made it very far... Cause you know you've got the keys to my heart Cause...
One... you're like a dream come true Two... just wanna be with you Three... girl it's plain to see... that your the only one for me and Four.. .repeat steps one to three Five... make you fall in love with me If ever I believe my work is done... then I start Back at One......
Say farewell to the dark of night... I see the coming of the sun... I feel like a little child... whose life has just begun... You came and breathed new life Into this lonely heart of mine... You threw out the life line... just in the Nick of Tiimmmeeee.....
One... you're like a dream come true Two... just wanna be with you Three... girl it's plain to see... that your the only one for me... girl and... Four... repeat steps one through three Five... make you fall in love with me If ever I believe my work is done... then I start Back at One
byebyes .
its been awhile .
i dont know why ..
the lonely feeling just creeps in .
discreetly .
its hurting .. already .
talked about it .
and maybe ..
he's right .
that is the only solution .
but i dont want to !
i prefer what im having now .
i prefer what my eyes brings me to now .
the past just aint the sights i wanna see .
maybe i need a mirror to myself .
ego is not gonna help here .
brought down to earth .
sigh .
ego is a pretend .
ego is a makeup .
ego is to cover up the rubbish .
or maybe ..
that guy was right .
i just need to make my move .
it was rubbish the other time .
i need to do it on my own .
or not .
sighs .
this is nonsense !
damn it .
i dont know what is the problem now ..
aint life pretty now ?
why do i wanna make it complicated !?
un-loved .
torn
Tuesday, June 17, 2008
heys !
hah . i downloaded apple's net browser aka Safari . using it now .. think its quite cool . i think im just bored of FireFox .
anyways. im thinking of getting a iMac in time to come . but its about 2000bucks . ohmygosh . bang wall . hah . but i wonder if getting an iMac will be the right choice .. i'll have to learn from scratch on how to operate the whole machine man . hahah ! it'll make me an ultra noob . but its super nice ! i swear . ): ah well .. we'll see .
okays . i did a little math in the noon . like 5ques ? haha . im probably gonna sleep tml morning . math mock is gonna be a big joke . n i've concluded my midyears is gone . unless i dont sleep n study every single second . perhaps i still can pass ? hah . die . ANDYtham .. die !
nothing else for now . except that im waiting for imeem to load . hah . its quite slow these days ..
done . sayos .
flashes of you, us . i wonder how are you now ..
torn
Sunday, June 15, 2008
hello .
1 week left to mid year ! OH NO .
im sooooooooo gonna die . haha . only covered 1% ? BANG WALL !
anyways . hols been boring . been either stoning at home or sleeping at home . hahahah ! n most of the times when im out .. im with my family . guess im really becoming a good boy man . super no life la . damn it . booooooooo ..
ohh . happy dad's day . had dinner tgt with my uncle's family . haha . super random . but yea . (: family is LOVE these days . oh ! i even took family photos recently !! i'll upload if i have the soft copy . went to pick the photos in the noon today . super nice ! hah !! n i realised my smiles are inconsistent . its a different smile at different photo . some are real fake . LOL . there was one photo which was candid . n we were laughing like crazy in the photo . but its NICE ! LOVE ! =D
cherish your family when you have the chance . (: loveSSSSSS .
watched Spain's match last night . 2nd half was boring except Villa's goal . i think he's another Torres . damn . i hope Wenger suddenly become crazy and not go for him . ):
anyways ! anybody know if there's any upcoming Singtel roadshows ? or other company for that matter .. i need to get a new broadband plan soon . sis is moving out soon . meaning i got no more sponsor for my net alr . ): need to get cheap and good deal man ! guess im gonna pay for the net bills .. ahhh ! phone bills are alr disastrous enough man ! hah . no more pasta.. no more fish n co . only hawker centre and grass patch from now on . hahahah !
oh . random thingy . i think ugly monster 1 is attached . hahahaha ! i dont know why i had to blog this . but .. i dont care . muahahah ~
oh yar .. haven decide what i wanna do tml . option 1 is to study with Clare n Bindy . option 2 is to go out with sis . apparently doors at her new house got alot of defects . so gonna complain n see what happens tml .
ah ! i remembered something while i was stoning in the car today . sigh .
i think my entries are becoming darn random these days . ha . lalalalal . enough .
byebyes ..
suddenly .. pictures of the many mornings came up to me .. and it became misses soon . in the end .. a chance to reflect upon the wrong decision made . sigh .
perhaps ..
torn
Wednesday, June 11, 2008
heys ..
finally went out . haha . been a while man .. considering its the hols now .
so well . went sis hse for awhile in the noon . wanted to gym . but too lazy . n anyways . haven recover from ytd's session . so im prob gonna go tml ? shall see how it goes .. (:
anyways . caught Narnia just now . freaking long . haha . think its okaaaayyyyy .... not worth all its hype . wanted to catch KungFu Panda . selling fast everywhere ! bang wall . im gonna watch it before hols end . i dont care . hahas .
ah well .. dont know what im feeling now . quite affected by the rain . ha .
oh ! n ear piece is spoilt . damn it ! only one side of the ear piece is working . but luckily its the extension part thats spoilt . so i'll prob do without it until i find the extension ba .
okays . thats all .
byebyes ..
it just wouldnt click . thats it for trying . let it be what it should be . i give up .
torn
Sunday, June 08, 2008
heys !
woo . finally done . spent like 2hrs on the new skin? haha . yeah . noob i know .
spent quite some time relinking the whole world . wooo ! all the links r now new n updated ! proud of myself !
haha. like this skin ! think i'll be stuck on it for quite some time ba . =D
now im tired already . haha . look at the time man . booooooo ! alrights . actually .. im not exactly tired . but i just dont feel like staying online . perhaps watch my show again ? haha . or maybe i'll stone on my bed ba . been awhile since i did that . miss the feeling already . ha .
alrights . thats all . like the skin ? loves !
byebyes .
whats wrong ? i wonder .
torn
Friday, June 06, 2008
heys .
went to blog hop awhile ago . went to random blogs of people i know . link here n there and then here n there again . found blogs from seniors, juniors and people from my batch as well . yea. got this song from random blog too . Peirong's. junior in Dunearn. ha . duhh ! cant be from pri sch right !? barely remember names except those few .
so yeah . lots of memories flooded me at one go . ha . i really mean LOTS . sigh . it seems like when i was in sec sch .. i didnt bother about the consequences of my actions . i just do whatever my feeling tells me to . no bothers . no worries . n i would often come out with whatever shit excuses to cover my actions .
guilt . has overwhelmed me . too much childish acts . i think i was pretty much oblivious of all my actions . until now .
looking back . now i understand why there was so much hatred . i am sorry .
guess its all too late to apologise since whats done is done . i dont hav a time machine to turn back time . perhaps .. even if i could turn back time .. i doubt i will change my actions . not because i am not guilty of it . but because that is what made me grow .. isnt it ?
as in .. isnt life like that ? filled with the ups n downs . n one will learn from mistakes . slowly grow up .. n mature .
no . i am not feeling emo now . this is really the reflection time . n this is the result of my reflection .
the song .. Midnight Hour - Running Away perhaps summarises my feelings n thoughts now . hell lots is speeding around in my mind now . making me a little giddy now . ha . noob . whatever . anyways . should look at the lyrics of the song . with my favourite being this 2 lines : I’m running away, Im leaving this place, Yeah…Im running away, Im running away yea . it pretty much make up the whole song .
but anyways . went to Mr Tong's blog while i was blog hopping . he's at Poland now ? yeah . i think so . but he's definitely at some European countries now . a quote from his blog: "u really DO feel european. it has a calming effect." he felt this when he was sitting on a bench at some place that i've forgotten . he sat there n watched tourists n locals walk by .. how often do one feel this in Singapore ? let me answer it for you . nope. not at all ! perhaps .. the only place i can picture this scene is at Botanic Gardens . but even so .. i doubt Singaporeans will go there just to sit and chill .. the weather will probably kill whatever mood they have . in this humid tropical island .. every single second counts . time is money ? ha . it certainly applies here man .
hah . after talking, i mean typing, so much .. its time for me to head back to reality . the examinations are still waiting for me . without the certificates, aka pieces of PAPER, im not gonna survive in this crazy country . i certainly hope to emigrate n RUN AWAY from this crazy town, this CRAZY society . there's hardly any room to rest .
i realised . blogging is the only way for breathing . maybe this kind of 'thought provoking' entries will help me in the long run . other than the fun n excitement i get when i dont study, which is most of the time .. perhaps .. this is the best n efficient way to rest .
bye all .
envy . i really envy the slow paced n calm life . yearn . perhaps, the best word to describe .
torn
Thursday, June 05, 2008
heys !
ha . bored ! gonna watch dvd before i sleep . yar i know the time now . haha . but cant sleep .. im supposed to study now . but... nothing will get in .
stupid things happening .. n i swear its not good . okay . at least for now .. confused people = prepare to bang wall people . okay . that doesnt make sense . whatever . when one is confused .. tat monkey better dont make any decision . haha . i swear ! so Andy Tham .. please SHUTUP n move away now !! omg . this is ultimate scary .. the consequences is gonna be as bad as a atomic bomb in my hse . hahaha ! okay . its no joke .
n the weather is freaking irritating now ! rahh . im hot like a mad cow n sweating like a mad dog .. ahhh ! it was raining like a few hrs ago pls . whats with the weather ?!
enough of ranting . bye !
confused kid . i said: "get out n go away, AndyTham!" this is bad enough already .
torn
Monday, June 02, 2008
heys .
geog is over . cool. im probably gonna fail it . yes . again . sigh! it'll never work for me .. damn it . gone is 20th position .
oh . dont know whats with my recent typing .. feels its nicer this way . punctuation after the sentence ! hahas . cool aint it ? lol . but i think someone i know types like tat too . just cant recall . too bad . lol .. =)
thats a smiley ! not punctuation . so yup ..
anyways . feeling quite emo . so im here . randomly spitting things out . yeahyeah . again again n again . but well .. i dont rmb setting up the blog with a happy intention . haha . so yup .
ohh . so whats making me so emo ?!
er . actually ... its not really some big thing la . so im not exactly emo . just ... dont feel good about it . how often does Andy feel good about something man ?! especially at night .. ha !
so yeah . seems like i just committed a mistake . not just actually .. been a while .. just that i kinda realised it now . oh ! i once typed no regrets or something like tat in an entry . yeah . its the same issue . im still not regretful on the decision i've made ! just that it seems like im doing the wrong things . ha . exactly why its called a mistake . so well .. up to me to stop committing the mistake . n now is a good time . hah .
n i dont know whats with imeem now . been loading it since i signed in into blogger .. but its still loading . lol .. so i shall talk till it finishes loading . ha !
there's a match tml ! Singapore vs Uzbekistan . think tats the correct spelling .. since blogger's dict suggested it .
oh its done . Shayne Ward - Breathless . enjoy people ..
taking off . bye all ..
pick me up if i fall . dont leave me there . because i know i will get stuck .. thats all .
torn
WANTS;
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trucks of cash!
new computer!
Haagen Daaz!
shirts!
pants!
smiles!