Wednesday, December 31, 2008
ahhh ..
seems like blogger dont allow users to lock entries ..
=(
but whyyyy ..
urghh ..
oh well .
im off then .
byebyes ..
24hours away .
no ! not to new year !
torn
Sunday, December 28, 2008
it wasnt a bbq in the end .
hahas . a family dinner ..
okays . not exactly family since my dad wasnt around .
he's still working .
his working time is super irregular .
so over the dinner .
we talked about my enlistment ..
and how can we possibly leave out 'the siao one' .
hahahaha !
thats nat fyi .
so yea .. on my enlistment day .
parents and elder sis plus both my bro in laws will send me there .
cool huh .
so yup . do your math and thats 5people .
it means .. the siao one wont be going .
we conluded that it'll be for the better .
she wont cry this way . i think .
and i wont feel so emo .
hah !
yes i will . damn it .
lols .
going malaysia tml !
with a few council people .
think it'll be fun !
overseas trip with friends will always be fun i guess .
=D
ah damn it .
my malaysia trip with the dumb girl seems screwed .
so yar ..
staying in singapore instead .
oh yeah !
so i got bored n had nothing to do when i was at my sis house .
so i started planning whatever we gonna do .
everthing looks good on paper now .
just left with the financial part and carrying it out .
=)
love one of the day's plan !
and obviously .. im not gonna blog it out ..
readers will know once its over .
guess i'l blog about it ?
we'll see .
hahahs .
after planning . i realised ..
i only hav 7days with her ?!
omfcukingg .
cos 8th is family day .
but dont care .
Natalie Lio, you'r gonna join in !
hahah !
yeah . im done ..
now .. Xueli asked me to do something . so i'll be nice and do it .
since im kinda bored anyways .
a memory of me n Xueli:
there's alot man ! lols .
bad - in the canteen . Xueli and Feiyun . classic moment .
good - receiving my 18th birthday present . THE monkey !
i so gotta thank the 2 of them for giving me the monkey pls .
hahahahs .
its so significant between me and the dumb girl now .
lols .
=)
If you read this, if your eyes are passing over this right now. Even if we don't speak often, please post a comment with a memory of You and I. It can be good or bad, it can be anything you want. When you're finished, post this little paragraph on your blog and be surprised (or mortified) about what people remember about you.
thats all for today .
sayos !
torn
hihi !
wow .
what an experience ..
up and down the hill .
jumping down the bike .
losing my water bottle .
losing our way .
reaching the point of dehydration .
simply .. EXCITING !
though my butt hurts like anything now .
guess its worth it all .
=)
moreover . got to enjoy the sunset .
woohoooo !
oh ! and the life lesson i got through the talking and all .
looks like im not so experienced afterall .
hahahah !
maybe its time i progress on huh .
hahs .
i'll just follow what my heart tells me to .
it'll just lead me to the best !
random thought:
i have been drinking green tea recently !
in fact . its everyday .
hahhs .
oh bitch .. u'r everywhere now . damn it .
first the blue sky . then clouds . then image . then now green tea .
you just wanna take over my entire brain yea ?
lols .
oh wait . i wont like veggie . WONT .
hmm . i'll let you have my brain okays .
along with my heart .
for you . and only you .
awwww ...
hahahahahs .
thats what will happen when someone is whiny in the middle of the night with nothing to do .
haha !!
okays . im done talking .
if you cant make my heart beat faster .. i dont know what else will .
torn
Friday, December 26, 2008
wow . another lonely day .
nat will only be back on the 1st .
damnn ..
oh well . packed myself with activities till then !
cycling at ubin tml with a few council guys .
family bbq on the 28th .
bbq at malaysia with a few council peeps on the 29th .
only coming back on the 30th .
meeting the usual gang for count down party on the 31st .
so i guess i wont feel so bad for the next few days .
hopefully .
=)
oh well . slacked in the noon and went gym .
good work out i guess .
super weak though .
=(
after which came the best part of the day .
enjoyed the serenity and tranquaility of teenage life .
not exactly quiet though .
with cars zooming by me and my nano playing .
walked around in woodlands with no direction in mind .
with a target though - a coffee shop to get dinner .
so with the slow songs ringing in my ears ..
i set off from lacasa .
thinking that im heading in the right direction .
half an hour later .. i reached the junction before lacasa .
how nicee ...
but oh well .
i enjoyed the walk .
i walked the pace that is so anti singaporean/joshua .
the pace that allowed my steps to follow my heart beat .
the pace that made me realised how slow life could actually be .
and the pace that kinda eases my mind, soul and body .
with the evening sun and gentle breeze blowing against me .
i have nothing to complain about .
even though i just came out of the gym .
and despite me having no direction ..
all i wanted to do was to just keep on walking ..
enjoy the blue sky .. breeze .. and the silence inside me .
couldnt help but missed my baby girl .
snapped a few photos that she'll love . guess i'll post it at the end of the entry .
i wished she was beside me .
i wished she'll be there enjoying the peace with me .
but oh well ...
i realised my life before this was tiring at some point.
everything just seems to suck energy from me .
even the activities that should energise myself seems to be exhausting .
walking along orchard road is the best example .
at the pace everyone is walking .
you cannot stop or relax at any moment .
everything seems to be so err .. tensed up ??
at least thats to me .
so im glad i had to get my own dinner tonight .
and happy that i made the decision to walk to the coffeeshop .
ironically, losing my directions helped .
hahahs .
thats all .
maybe if you have nothing to do like me ..
try having a slow walk around your neighbourhood with your favourite songs playing in your ears . it'll be nice .
or if you'r hardworking enough .. or a romantic moment with your partner ..
the beach will be excellent .
just have a stroll along the coastline ..
and my baby girl, i miss you .
bye all .
torn
Thursday, December 25, 2008
hello !
=)
torn
Wednesday, December 24, 2008
wated to blog ytd night . but was feeling too lazy .
this is gonna be short cos im meeting Xueli and Feiyun later .
been awhile since i last caught up with them . hah .
meeting up with the gossip queens are always fun !
=p
so yeah .
been spending the past days with her .
painting house, movie, slacking and Felicia's party .
and for nat:
whatever happened to time passing quickly man .
it was a torture ytd .
everything seems so slow !
clock just goes slower without you ?
oh mann ...
come back quickly can !?
like NOW !
alrights .
enough of her .
went sch to play bball the day before .
i swear im an uncle or ahgong alr .
cant make simple shots neither can i run .
hahahahs .
not much energy left after like 2games ?
oh hell !
i need to hit the gym like soon !
thats prob how im gonna spend my post x'mas ~ pre new year .
oh !
talking about gym .
went awhile ago .
ran 2.4
timing was 14+ 15-ish .
wtshit pls !!
i want my stamina back la !!
damnnn ...
random:
'about a girl' is nice .
thats the song title !
go find it .
and 'unbeautiful' by lesley roy too .
stuck to the song man !
alrights .
gotta go bath and leave !
im late !
hahaahs .
byebyes . =)
torn
Wednesday, December 17, 2008
im here again .
hahs .
=)
been pretty these days .
n i mean my mood !
lol .
holiday has been fun n all ..
not so hectic alr .
really having the HOLIDAYS !
yeah man . liked this alot ..
choose to sleep in whenever i want .
choose to get out whenever i want .
loving it .
=)
met up with some of the scappers recently .
actually . more like meetin up with TeoHuei and Melody and Jeremy .
other than that .. i always see the rest . hah !
went east coast park to cycle .
cycled to changi ?
oh man .. love the sights along the way .
its beautiful .
too bad its at the other side of the world n im too lazy to travel all the way there .
hahs .
rained halfway thru and we had to stop for shelter .
played bridge there ?
lol .
n i swear that fat pig aka pretty dumb one dont know how to play !
stupid please .
aiyo .
=p
started our journey back bcos it was getting late .
and it rained again !
it stopped while we were in the shelter . hahahahahah .
okays .paused for the matter .
but it was fun to get under the rain ..
been awhile since i last let the rain hit me ..
hmmm ..
but oh well . luckily it stopped after awhile .
=)
and im gonna paint house tml !
no .
not mine .
lol .
hope it'll be fun !
till the next time alrights ..
too lazy to continue now .
=)
torn
Saturday, December 13, 2008
read thru a few entries in the past .
saw Mr Eddie Koh's photos' captions .
hmmm .
feeling kinda emotional now .
no im not emo !
there is a difference !
lols .
n the thing thats on my mind now ..
my girl .
so yeah . this is gonna be for her .
i titled the entry:
the unofficial official .
guess you'll be the only person who understands it .
or perhaps .. you're too dumb to comprehend it huh !
hahs ..
nvm, i'll explain to you ..
maybe it all started since long ago .
perhaps when we were so enthusiastic in scap .
fate made me chose council instead of basketball .
and there we started knowing each other .
cant recall if we worked together in scap .
but i sure remember you running for the prestigious position, President .
vaguely in my mind .
but i think you said something about your jovial character that will allow us, the 8th by then, to progress well together .
if i never remember wrongly , i voted for Zhilun then you .
some part of me went crazy n skipped Wilfred .
im so happy that Wilfred is the President while you became my comm's head .
looking back at the times ..
i think u wasnt too impressed with me huh .
hah .
bet your impression of me must be:
aiya . this guy .. slack and wont do work one la .
right ?
=p
but as the term progressed .
as the biggest committee shrinked ! lol .
we grew closer as a committee .
and by the time orientation`08 ended ..
we were pretty much bonded together .
oh . especially when the entire comm is only left with you and us, the confused guys .
meetups became more friendly . no longer the hi and byes .
meetings became fun and exciting at some point !
guess the only time i really helped out when you asked for help was when we were doing the cards thingy for the various ccas .
haha ! oh yea . that just proved the point that im darn slacker . lol .
oi . u didnt use the quotes i had to find lo ! idiot .
then came the cheers ..
that was really enjoyable .
=)
after council ended .
guess you started to feel something huh ..
i really didnt notice .
but at that point of time .. frankly ..
nothing would have happened i guess .
random messages u sent me .
inclusive of all the encouragements .. slowly built things up ?
hah ..
FINE ! since i already said so much ..
you asked before but i didnt tell ya . =x
i confessed . there is this period of time i had a minor crush .
yes. i did .
but i quickly dismissed it myself .
because of the messages and times i see you in the library i guess .
at that period of time .. i really looked forward to seeing ya there .
but i realised u seldom study in the library .
thats probably how i managed to dismiss the thoughts and feelings i have that fast .
A levels came fast and furious and i had no time to think about other stuffs given my results .
so yeah ..
after which taiwan trip finally came and thats when it all started .
but at the start .. none of this occur to me .
i mean .. it just didnt occur to me that we'll get together .
and moreover .. a close friend of ours was there getting ya .
i was all out to help him .
seriously .
but at the last 2 days ..
somehow . i figured that we actually clicked .
the time that this went through my mind .. i was still amused by it .
you have been asking and if you really want an exact time i started to think about this .
its when you took the photo of the kinder surprise choc at ximending .
the one which i used the choc to cover my eyes and had the toys in my mouth .
hahaha !
guess both of us felt it after we came back .
and i further confirmed myself at the airport .
when we were shopping at the dutyfree shop .
kept asking ya to go into the shop bcos i wanted your opinion .
i wanted to get something that you liked .
prom came and we already know what we have in mind .
its just waiting to happen huh ..
butter factory just made both of us sure of this without words .
and then ..
finally .
4 December 2008 .
your birthday;
your favourite day;
my happiest day;
our day .
the overly excited you started it .
admit it !
and we got together, unofficially, officially .
unofficial bcos no question was popped .
we both knew .
now do u understand the title, dumbdumb ?
for all the emo times that happened after that ..
it is just me adapting .
trust me i'll get used to your way of living .
soon,
i promise .
and this isnt all about me okays ..
you have your part to complete it:
to understand the complicated me .
=)
and all the insecurities that you feel .
i understand .
and i know its me thats the cause of it .
time will prove that im right .
i'll make sure of that .
Natalie,
this just feels different from before .
YOU
are the cause, the element, the catalyst, the key to the difference .
i've said it before and im gonna tell you once more ..
i believe this will last .
i really do .
=)
torn
Friday, December 12, 2008
alrights . here i am .
so yea ..
went taiwan after A's .
its uber fun !
Natalie, Ciauer, Yanbing, Peiwen, Lewis, Bongyap .
wooohoo .
had its ups and downs .
but everything's cool in the end .
as always .
=)
we'r not new to it huh .
oh well .. guess too old a thing for me to talk about .
so just go facebook and look at the photos !
hah .
prom was next!
had it at hilton .
not so bad i guess ..
josh became runner up yo !
hahaha .
had lotsa fun ..
n butter factory after that .
was too pack to really enjoy myself .
but ah well .. it was still fun .
=)
so yea .
gonna try arena and zirca before i enlist .
i hope .
hahs .
lets just say i gotta take care of my financial stability first .
im broke .
hahahahah .
n this is gonna be random but hmmm ..
im attached .
=)
bye all .
torn
i know i need to update soon .
i'll do it real soon okays ..
just not now .
not in the freaking mood to blog now .
came here to rant whine whatever .
damn it.......
whats the difference between getting attached and being single man .
this sucks .
i swear .
and this is getting on my nerves .
fcuk la .
aahhhhhhh ...
i really really want this to last ..
and im pretty sure it will .
so yea .
it isnt that hard .
tolerate .
adapt .
time .
bye all .
torn