i think imeem will take the world's time to load .

so maybe you wanna to listen to your own's .

Disenchanted - My Chemical Romance .

yea . 

no prize for guessing if this entry is gonna be emo .

damn it ..

got back all my results for mids .

in the order of h2s, h1 n gp .

EUUEE

this is definitely NOT encouraging !

usually .. by mids .. a j2 student should be gettin like Cs ?

at the worst .. probably Ds ..

but im no where NEAR there .

i dont even have a D !

damn it .

n the fact tat my 2 Us are pretty bad .

tat makes things worst !

had a talk with the guys after school .

but more or less bcos of Josh who is thinking about retaining .

yea . gave it a thought before .

n its definitely not in my list .

for me .. its either i score well for A's n make it into the local uni . 

or i go overseas ..

im NOT gonna retain at this point of time . 

n im definitely not gonna screw A's n go poly after that .

not that i can afford the fees at a foreign uni ..

but im not gonna consider other options that r worst off .

im gonna be Josh's best frien n dedicate a part of my entry to him .

(:

like what we've said just now .

there's still time if we start now .

n yes . like NOW !

n we'll have to work doubly hard . or maybe change the doubly to 'infinity-ly' ..

its not like none of us have not gave a thought for retaining ..

the thoughts of retaining went through my mind a billion zillion times .

but like i've said earlier .. the other options are more viable .

we can all safely say that we'll have time to start studying if we retain .

but what are the odds that we'll start studying ?

j1 mids . did like balls .. n we said we will start working .

j1 promos . a little better . but still like crap . n we swear that we'll study during the dec hols n do all the tuts once j2 term starts .

j2 CT . come on .. we'r not new to this . we still fcuk it all up .

n now ! j2 mids .. we all did like balls. 

n we'r now left with 3 more months to the life-defining A levels examination .

not only so . like what Ash said . you'll be ALONE ehh . 

n no . dont tell me you'll become a loner n start studying .

bcos u r Josh n you'll make new friends like in [blinks] . ah yes . 

we've all been through this shit more than enough times ..

what say you we just start studying now .

n stop being a pessimist ..

no point arguing our lives off n conclude that we'll just stick around n still take the papers this year .

im sure we're already getting the pressure .

fcuk the 'i'll-do-it-tml' mentality n we start studying NOW !

quoting from you,yourself . we'r not stupid . we'r just too fcuking lazy .

so screw that laziness n start studying now .

all is not lateeeee ....

IF we start NOW !

you get me ?! u stupid boy .

now say u love me .

(:

alrights . think now i've motivated myself . 

its time to study .

A's is no longer like O's where i can just study in 1month time .

i MUST start now ..

sighs .

i dont wanna screw A's .

like i mentioned earlier ..

A's is the life-defining paper .

its either do or die .

n NOPE ! i dont wanna die .

procrastination is a big NO NO !

face the reality that i have no time left .

this is like fighting against a cancer or something ..

its a war of determination .

the end result will depend on the amount of effort put in .

sighs .

this feeling sucks big time .

im really a big time pessimist when it comes to studies man .

damn it !

i dont wanna think about the consequences of screwing A's .

i just wanna think about having the aces in my results slip n trouble on which course i shld take .

alrights !

thats it .

just

start

studying !

cheers .

ciao ..

(: