your presence made this worthwhile .
you didnt make my heartbeat stop .
instead, you took those heartbeats n breaths away .
Friday, June 06, 2008
heys .
went to blog hop awhile ago . went to random blogs of people i know . link here n there and then here n there again . found blogs from seniors, juniors and people from my batch as well . yea. got this song from random blog too . Peirong's. junior in Dunearn. ha . duhh ! cant be from pri sch right !? barely remember names except those few .
so yeah . lots of memories flooded me at one go . ha . i really mean LOTS . sigh . it seems like when i was in sec sch .. i didnt bother about the consequences of my actions . i just do whatever my feeling tells me to . no bothers . no worries . n i would often come out with whatever shit excuses to cover my actions .
guilt . has overwhelmed me . too much childish acts . i think i was pretty much oblivious of all my actions . until now .
looking back . now i understand why there was so much hatred . i am sorry .
guess its all too late to apologise since whats done is done . i dont hav a time machine to turn back time . perhaps .. even if i could turn back time .. i doubt i will change my actions . not because i am not guilty of it . but because that is what made me grow .. isnt it ?
as in .. isnt life like that ? filled with the ups n downs . n one will learn from mistakes . slowly grow up .. n mature .
no . i am not feeling emo now . this is really the reflection time . n this is the result of my reflection .
the song .. Midnight Hour - Running Away perhaps summarises my feelings n thoughts now . hell lots is speeding around in my mind now . making me a little giddy now . ha . noob . whatever . anyways . should look at the lyrics of the song . with my favourite being this 2 lines : I’m running away, Im leaving this place, Yeah…Im running away, Im running away yea . it pretty much make up the whole song .
but anyways . went to Mr Tong's blog while i was blog hopping . he's at Poland now ? yeah . i think so . but he's definitely at some European countries now . a quote from his blog: "u really DO feel european. it has a calming effect." he felt this when he was sitting on a bench at some place that i've forgotten . he sat there n watched tourists n locals walk by .. how often do one feel this in Singapore ? let me answer it for you . nope. not at all ! perhaps .. the only place i can picture this scene is at Botanic Gardens . but even so .. i doubt Singaporeans will go there just to sit and chill .. the weather will probably kill whatever mood they have . in this humid tropical island .. every single second counts . time is money ? ha . it certainly applies here man .
hah . after talking, i mean typing, so much .. its time for me to head back to reality . the examinations are still waiting for me . without the certificates, aka pieces of PAPER, im not gonna survive in this crazy country . i certainly hope to emigrate n RUN AWAY from this crazy town, this CRAZY society . there's hardly any room to rest .
i realised . blogging is the only way for breathing . maybe this kind of 'thought provoking' entries will help me in the long run . other than the fun n excitement i get when i dont study, which is most of the time .. perhaps .. this is the best n efficient way to rest .
bye all .
envy . i really envy the slow paced n calm life . yearn . perhaps, the best word to describe .
torn
WANTS;
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trucks of cash!
new computer!
Haagen Daaz!
shirts!
pants!
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