your presence made this worthwhile .
you didnt make my heartbeat stop .
instead, you took those heartbeats n breaths away .
Monday, May 12, 2008
hey.
wanted to put Perfect World by Simple Plan. but couldnt find it. actually i found one. but the quality aint that good. so decided to put this instead. been quite stuck to this song recently.
sighs. duno why.. just having this negative feeling. went down for volleyball today. lost. but it was a tough match from the start. n the guys put in a tough fight. salutes!
cheered like crazy today. but its still not up to expectations. maybe because we have high expectations? i dont know. noise level were there. but our cheers were not co-ordinated. in a way.. some councillors were cheering here n there.. volleyball girls were cheering on their own too. but somehow. it was still freaking loud. hah! it would be a lot better if we could do it together.. but well.. its over. we'll now look forward to the 3rd/4th placing match. good job guys! =)
2 years ago. i was the one getting cheered on. wearing the school jersey. fighting for what we, the team, want.. playing for the love of the game. keeping the school spirit high at the same time..
now im sitting at the side. cheering people on. sighs. i really miss those times.. its a different feeling.
n when the cheers r loud.. sometimes, you'll just want to stop the game n soak into the atmosphere. this will, perhaps, be something i'll never feel again. i miss....
perhaps joining some merit sports will allow me to get this feeling back. whether i get into the team is another question though. but if i do get into the team.. will i be on the court fighting, once again?
is joining council really the right choice? yeah. its too late to regret and change now. but i never regretted joining council once. council term definitely helped me grew up a hell damn lot.. i swear. anybody who knows me will know too. but im just thinking... will joining other ccas allow me to grow as well.. perhaps in another aspect of life. but still. i'll grow.. i'll mature.. i'll change.. is joining council the RIGHT, best, choice for me?
lalalalala.
was already quite affected after volleyball lost. heats was disastrous! kinda lost every single damn thing. perhaps i didnt put in enough effort to find the best. guess im too complacent with the lead now.. we'll do well in cheers! =)
this is definitely not a good time for me to go into depression mood. mid years r just weeks away. not cool ! even though im starting to do all my tutorials n work.. is it too late?
i dont wanna look back and have ANY regret.
bye world..
is council the best choice?
torn
WANTS;
great A's results!!
trucks of cash!
new computer!
Haagen Daaz!
shirts!
pants!
smiles!