Sunday, February 17, 2008
heys.
just back from ogl camp.
i have alot alot alot of things on my hands now.
x-country, amazing race games, studies, assignments, homeworks.
but i dont care. i cant concentrate if i dont 'pen' this down somewhere. i'll go crazy.
n i know im like the last person in council or in the world to have the right to say the following. but somehow.. somewhat. reality hit Andy. hard. n he realised if nobody is gonna do anything to this. the family tat grew him up is gonna break apart real soon.
but maybe im over-sensitive. n over-reading things.
so at any point of time u feel wronged or whatever. feel free to press 'alt-F4' to leave this page. n im sorry about it.
this ogl camp has been a totally new experience. n i really mean DIFFERENT.
perhaps its because we'r having a new system.
n another reason would be because this o2 is at a freaking hell wrong time.
its halfway thru the term. n common test is right about the corner.
in actual fact. another 3weeks?
somehow. the teachers were right.
the debrief on the first night.. they were saying they feel that the mood of this ogl camp is weird. its not like the usual feeling. i totally agree with them.
right from the start of the camp. my mood was wrong. i was feeling so moody n irritated. guess the hse capts r feeling more or less the same as me.
we had a mutual consent to postpone all the deadlines for amazing race and carry on with x-country first. because x-country will happen earlier than amazing race so we thought that we should finish up the planning for x-country first before proceeding to plan amazing race.
n the fact that j2s are currently having their tests n catchin up with their works didnt help matters. totally.
but the teachers ic of amazing race had a talk wit the hse capts. n reason things out. like why we shouldn't postpone the deadlines n lalala..
we were obviously upset about it. but at the same time. we also feel disappointed with ourselves due to the lack of proper planning on our side.
n before that.. had to do out the x-country board. so was already rushing things n already feeling quite frustrated.
so we went into the camp with these feelings.
maybe because that was how we started. thats why things just got worst n went out of hand.
i was talking to a scapper in the evening.
was talkin n talkin.
when i suddenly realise..
i really matured alot since the start of the investitute. i still remember that time at LT3, even before the invest. kind of like the 'elections' day? the time when we came out with the exco.
i did my part in running for exco.
i want to be Welco head.
but i was rejected.
n Andy Tham wasnt even in the names of the short-listed people.
he was SUPER disappointed n sad. n he still is.
i walked out of the LT. straight away.
such a childish thing to do.
i flared up outside the LT. while they'r doing their thing in the LT.
i stayed outside. talking to another frien.
i rmb Nic came out n consoled me. oh. Nic is the 7th Pubco head.
but ytd night. when we were discussing about the issue of whether j2s shld join in the opening performance.. i managed to keep my cool. i even had to play the role of 'chiller' n calm people down.
i've learnt how to stay cool at approriate times. n listen to others opinion n reflect on whether their ideas will improve things.
ever since i joined council. i always find myself becoming more n more matured.
this wont happen without the help of the 8th Student Councillors.
this big family really helped me alot.
but for the first time. this big n happy family is facing a major problem.
we are starting to shoot down each other, criticise each other.
i dont know why. i have the feeling that its breaking up anytime soon.
i hope im wrong.
nobody is perfect.
n i guess everyone is so tired after the energy-DRAINING camp that we cant process our thoughts properly.
humans being humans. we'r selfish to a certain extent.
when we'r at our most vulnerable time.. we'll only think for ourselves.
when we feel so frustrated n tired n tied up by all our worries for our studies..
we'll lose our usual self. the composed n always-thinking-for-others self..
so all i hope now.
is for all 8th to reflect about what happen during the camp.
n what we went through AS A COUNCIL.
from investiture to orientation 1 to orientation 2 now.
are we really gonna split up n continue to shoot each other after what we'v been through TOGETHER !?
let us go back to our usual self.
the composed, caring n wonderful 8th Student Councillor.
n whatever the decisions u guys make. i respect it.
u'll have your own reasons.
i trust everyone to make the most sensible choice.
life has its ups n downs.
let us stick together n go through this down period we'r experiencing.
"We start out strong, and we'll end off even STRONGER !"
torn