Thursday, November 08, 2007
heys.
ahhh.
tomorrow.
the promote or retain day.
damn.
wasnt emo before this man.
was just worried.
seriously.. this aint cool nor fun.
talking on msn.
n realise tat i had enough of giving myself hope.
i dont wanna give myself any more hope.
despite the clues i have.
i dont wanna think that i have promoted.
n then end up crying like a mad dog tml.
i dont wanna climb up so high..
n realise that i have reached the end of the cliff.
the only way n chance for me to survive is to jump off.
n mayb hope tat i'll be alive down there.
it has been the case for council.
one major point of my life.
i dont wan that to be the case this time round.
n at another major point of my life.
its so bcos its gonna change my life.
im sure it will..
being the polo hse capt.
hmmmm.
what have i learnt?
or i din give a damn?
half of council term has past.
i hav 4more months left only.
council term is supposed da be fun, exciting, enjoyable..
im not saying im not.
but maybe it wasnt as fun, exciting, enjoyable as others have experienced.
if life could be smooth sailing..
and we would not need to make any decisions..
how good will it be..
these life-turning points of life is driving me mad.
not that im making wrong decisions..
its just that..
how good can it get if i chose the other way..
the decision to come to a jc is the classic example.
im not sayin that coming into a jc is not a bad thing.
but how good will it be if im in poly right now?
i'll never find out unless i go there..
but it'll never be the same.
ahhh.
forget it.
whatever it is.
im gonna take it on my stride.
at most go esplanade.
time will heal everything.
i guess.
calm n clear mind is what i need now.
bye all.
tml it shall be.
torn