Wednesday, October 24, 2007
hi.
so everyone got back their results.
some r happy. some r emo. some felt unjustified?
i dont know. guess everyone is just having mix feelings?
ah well. at least for me.
so yar.. talkin to the gays now.
gone r the days when we joke around. play the shit out of ourselves.
all of us r hit by reality. n i mean hit hard.
n IF we'r getting promoted..
i guess we really have to study.
we have too much to catch up man..
n yup. worried about our A's..
bcos there's no point getting DDD.
gets you nowhere in singapore.
n so we'r all blasting emo songs.
classic, pop, rock..
maybe its really time when we need to reflect on what we have done.
told mum my results.. n she was pretty alright with it.
she was telling me that its okay if i gave my best shot.
"but did i ?"
this question been running inside my brain for the past 24hrs.
before promos. i told myself i'll study hard for it.
yar. i did tat.
but was it too late? yes it is.
i got back what i deserved. no complains..
im not gonna think about the decision i made to enter a jc.
tat will be just an excuse for myself.
to run away from the fact that....
i did NOT gave my best.
i rmb Mrs Tan or Mr Yeo said before..
people will go to them after promos n swear vow that they'll work extra hard if they get promoted.
yar. now i understand y. n they'r not lying.
i probably need to do tat.
but hey! am i really gonna work hard?
given time.. will i really sit down n mug?
or will i spend it by playing pool?
damn. i hav too many questions to ans.
seriously..
im just doubting myself.
but im not stupid.
i know i can do it..
just like everyone else.
the fact tat we got the kind of results during o's
shows tat we do hav something in us.
im just lazy.
wait. im not having any prejudice against other people alrite..
n im not saying tat im clever.
so yar.. recieving alot of songs from Larry. all the emo screamos..
maybe im too used to my mp3.
its not emo enough.
maybe all i need is sleep.
bye all.
"Disenchanted" - My Chemical Romance
Well I was there on the day
They sold the cause for the queen,
And when the lights all went out
We watched our lives on the screen.
I hate the ending myself,
But it started with an alright scene.
It was the roar of the crowd
That gave me heartache to sing.
It was a lie when they smiled
And said, "you won't feel a thing"
And as we ran from the cops
We laughed so hard it would sting
Yeah yeah, oh
If I'm so wrong (so wrong, so wrong)
How can you listen all night long? (night long, night long)
Now will it matter after I'm gone?
Because you never learn a goddamned thing.
You're just a sad song with nothing to say
About a life long wait for a hospital stay
And if you think that I'm wrong,
This never meant nothing to ya
I spent my high school career
Spit on and shoved to agree
So I could watch all my heroes
Sell a car on tv
Bring out the old guillotine
We'll show 'em what we all mean.
Yeah yeah, oh
If I'm so wrong (so wrong, so wrong)
How can you listen all night long? (night long, night long)
Now will it matter long after I'm gone?
Because you never learn a goddamned thing.
You're just a sad song with nothing to say
About a life long wait for a hospital stay
And if you think that I'm wrong,
This never meant nothing to ya
So go, go away, just go, run away.
But where did you run to? And where did you hide?
Go find another way, price you pay
Woah, Woah, Woah, Woah, Woah, Woah
You're just a sad song with nothing to say
About a life long wait for a hospital stay
And if you think that I'm wrong,
This never meant nothing to ya, come on
You're just a sad song with nothing to say
About a life long wait for a hospital stay
And if you think that I'm wrong,
This never meant nothing to ya
At all, at all, at all, at all
torn