your presence made this worthwhile .
you didnt make my heartbeat stop .
instead, you took those heartbeats n breaths away .
Sunday, August 26, 2007
it seems like it is still within me. it feels so yesterday even though 3years has past. a full 3 years i mean. the time when we progressed, the time we spend together, all the happy times.. and no. i did not forget the unhappy moments. the moment i realised what i was about to face, the moment when the teacher asked me if i need the washroom, the moment when everyone was staring at me not knowing what happened, EVERYTHING. i didnt know i fell so deep in. after things became better, i really thought it was over. and at that moment, call me childish, bastard, what-you-name-it. i seriously thought that it wasnt a big deal. but when my mind became clear, when it finally grew into this world called Earth, i lost her. completely. guess she hated me as well. what i did was really crap. looking back now, im really ashamed. how i wish i could change name, and run away from it. but nope, i must face it. this is what they call 'face the music' isnt it ? its really pain. i mean painful. worried, anxious, blahblahs. it feels like its happening to me. but she is so far away. not to worry. i wont get back into that shit i used to be. i just wanna clear everything out in my mind now. stupid Weijie wants to sleep. idiotic Fahrun is turning over a new leaf and is nowhere to be found. tall Vincent is probably asleep. short Clare is probably training her fitness. new friend Janice is ever so dao. so yup. leaving me my blog. sorry to use up the bandwidth of Blogger to post this shit. but i just gotta get it out to somewhere,something.
till the next time. bye.
torn
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