Wednesday, March 21, 2007
hello...
this song kinda just expressed my feeling or rather mood today. sigh. dont know y. today im so bothered. haix.
did i make the right decision to stay in council? will i excel more if im in basketball? im not trying to say im super pro in bball. im just questioning my own decision. sigh. a few stuff happening at Sanctuary nowadays. guess its not really very good with these problems occuring. Mr Tong asked me if i was confident with the operation of Sanctuary. n i answered YES without thinking. maybe i am wrong? duties were a little screwed here n there. im not saying its scappers fault. it was my fault. some of the scappers had to attend remedial when they are supposed to do their duty. so yar.. resulting in the mini 'lack of man power' at Sanctuary. n then next.. as the j2s are having common tests at the hall.. people had to keep quiet at the Sanctuary. n then i didnt thought of that la. so it was very noisy up there. n i myself was watchin movie. sigh. i guess we got complaint. n people are not complying with rules. playing cards n people stayin inside the counter. haix. guess im just a bad leader.
maybe i'll be better off in basketball. even if im not in the team. i guess at least i wont be facing these problems. i'll be still happily dribbling the ball. running here n there. getting my body fit. n whatever..
not only these. been bothered by my CHEMISTRY. im like so freaking noob in it can? haix. cant even solve the simple tutorials.. how am i going to take A's?! damn. guess. im dumb. sighs. at first i was still thinkin about focusing on phy n math. since they'r more difficult. but now. i dont know if im still right. chem is killing me! n the worst thing is i dont have the self discipline to work hard n cover these. n geog too. am i coping with it? im not sure.. will econs serve me better? im a little struggling with geog now. is it because im not payin attention? i guess im just so used to Mr Kaan's style. now that its so different.. i need time to get use to this method. im already so use to having piles of notes from him. but now.. it seems like i gotta take down notes on my own. with the teacher in front rapping all the informations. yup. thats wad will happen in uni as well.. so i guess i just need time to get use to these.
oh. maybe all these problems are because i still haven get use to the style of learning in a junior college? sighs. i dont know.
or maybe i'll be better off in a poly? am i making the right decisions? seems like im questioning all my decisions lately. this is not healthy. haix. poly?
take me away .. im suffering.
bye.
torn