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Saturday, March 31, 2007

halo.

hmm. wanted to blog ytd. but sis slept. so didnt wanna disturbed her. although i tink she is already used to me using com with the lights of the room on and sleep. haha. sorry. =x

alrite. this few days been pretty bored. oh wait. how interesting can a JC life get? haha. blahs. mon - thurs i'll be studyin after school. maybe concourse maybe sanctuary. hmm. n yup. i've been workin on my chem. but shall stop.. now shall focus more on geog. i wan my triple A's ! rahh! haha. wadeva la.. i dun tink i'll get it.. with my pace of learning.
rmb i stopped on thurs? fri shld b my playin day! but somehow.. friends of mine apparently are those muggers who study 7days a week. omg.. i'll be crazy with them. but at least im given the motivation from them to study hard. hehe. somehow bahs.. so ytd. i end up sleeping in sanctuary. sian.. sat n sun will b my sleeping days.. haha. yeah! but i'll try to revise my work on sat la.. or mayb if sun too bored den can study a little also. haha..

election coming soon.. oh wait. interview comes first. whether i can go for election n campaigning.. still depends on the result of my interview. sighs! i wanna remain as my position now! grrr... got a strong feeling i wont get it though. sian. i guess i'll be pretty busy with these for the near future bahs.. but i tink after that. if i get in.. i can chill a little liao. but if i dun get in.. i'll get a big headache of my life..

你的难过都给我。。我只想看到你笑，而不是你在掉泪。你知不知道你在掉泪的脸很不好看，所以你要一直笑好吗？ =D
好讨厌那盏红绿灯！=p
keep the smileS with you. =]

torn

Tuesday, March 27, 2007

hello..

yeap. decided. close lid. n im gonna stick with it. at least until the A's are done n gotten over! =)

让时间来充当一切吧...不急..
慢慢来..
其时我自己也很乱, 不知道我应该做什么..
但是我非常肯定..
我心里的那扇门的锁,只有一把钥匙,
而那把钥匙只有在你一个人的手里.
=D

woohoo.. after using 2hrs. im done. with these sentences. crap! hahas.

just for you.
i'll be looking forward to your smile.

take care.

torn

Monday, March 26, 2007

hey.

sighs. was having dinner outside with my parents. i thought its gonna be great. cos its been long since we've eat out together, with my sis. as usual.. i'll talk about my life randomly. n today.. since i got my council application form.. i talked about it. i asked them if i shld try applying for president. n my sister went.. u go school for council or to study? crap la! got discouraged totally. i mean.. shouldn't i be recieving encouragement to try? or even if dont agree bcos it'll bring me alot of stress, she could have told me not to bcos it'll be stress. but no. wad i heard was that.. sighs.

yar. i've gotta admit. for the past mnnths. i have been kinda neglecting my studies for scap work. thats because we onli had like 5weeks to plan for o2! tats a super short period of time.. we had v rush deadlines to meet la.. its not like i want to stay out everyday yar? n im also tired. not i dont wanna sleep, but i just gotta finish all the work first! sighs.

n obviously i go school to study! i have been tryin to time-manage myself. n im still tryin to get use to these new teaching methods n the long long time table. its a big change. im not like others who r so adaptable to changes. n i swear im tryin hard to focus on my studies now. i know how important this 2years gonna be. its just make or break la.

im going to join council. decided. full stop. i really hope i can get encouragements instead of those. n anyway. council gonna help in my long term future. thats part of the reason i joined. so i dont see anything wrong with it.

alrite. enough of that.. went out eating with scappers today. cos school was halfday. celebrate the good A's result this year. yar. its really good. hope my batch will do the same too! n hopefully i'll be one of the contributors to the halfday celebration! =D

im trying hard.

bye.

你真的明白了?
我需要勇气 !
笑一个! =D

torn

Sunday, March 25, 2007

hey!

this is so random. but i got this sentence in mind. so im gonna blog it. hahas.. bleahs. i5 will know the reason of why im doing this bahs. haha. smiles!

怎么办? 好想对你说, 但是我就是没有勇气.
我好希望你的那句话是要对我说的..
因为我已经不知不觉的喜欢上你了.

okays. im done. i dont have chinese software! so.. i took alot alot of effort to type all these. haha. not gonna teach the way i did it. heh! interested. ask me bahs.. im resourceful ! woohoo.. Dunearn taught me this? haha. blahs.

我也很想走进你的心里.

cheers! =D
that confused guy was here.

torn

Saturday, March 24, 2007

hey people.

wanted to blog yesterday night. but was too 'in no mood' to blog. n anyway. had to get off the com as my sister wanted to sleep.

alrite. we had this small little mini graduation ceremony ytd. nahs. its not from A's. but its from SCAP, Student Council Attachment Program. Mr Tong lead us into this 'emo session'. he asked us to close our eyes.. n think. like any other scappers in the room. i did. just that i wasn't like some who started tearing halfway through. im strong! hmmm. blahs. =)

he got us thinking about our first interview. mine wasn't as smooth as i thought it would be. things i heard outside the room wasn't making me comfortable. n its certainly not helping the 'already quite scare' brain of mine. met SeokHoon outside the room. she's supposed to get interviewed at the room next door. she was kinda stress up i guess. she was still wondering if she should join. so yea.. started physco-ing her to join la. so it partly distracted me away from thinking about what i heard. n then. i stepped into the room. n i swear i was nervous! because they knew i took part in odac's trial. they asked me which i will choose if both clashed. n somehow in some way. i converted my msg to them in such a confident n a 'assured' tone that i'll choose SCAP. oh hey! i was having odac trial right before the interview. n i ran halfway to go for the meeting. n i was asked to plan for national day. with a committee of 10 people. it was certainly a small number. but i rmb.. i was questioned for my distribution at first. n i made slight changes to it. n tadah.. i presented it to them. oh. my interviewer was Mr Tong, Shawn and Huldah. n i was asked to do a cheer at the end.. didnt want to do ichiban cos everyone was doing it. so i end up doing oh yeah. but end up screwing it. haha.

got into scap. n i got my 'preferred' post. as Head of Welfare Committee. n i certainly did not regret choosing n taking up this post. so yea. im attached to 'already quite good friend', Shawn. this post n being in a part of SCAP definately made me learnt alot of things. n i swear.. its really the whole darn lot of things. i started learning right from the interview. rmb i said i had to plan for national day.. to run such a big event with so little people is kinda impossible. i didnt thought of the lack of manpower. so i just divided 10 people to 3 comm. i didnt realise that all of the comm are having too little people. n i was 'enlightened' by Mr Tong. he questioned me: ' then what will Games Co be doing before the games start?' n then i realised! actually.. people who are not doing any thing at a particular time could help the other comm. this way.. people would be handling a few tasks. but its definately better than having a few people to rush things to get all the tasks, given to the comm, done.
n yar.. i not only learn about this.. so much more. i've learn to handle my relations with people, to be optimistic, to look into more, deeper, details. built up my character and developed and grew up. n also. the important stuffs. my capabilty n ability as a leader increased throughout the whole process, journey as a scapper.

Mr Tong also mentioned about who we wanna Thank from SCAP n the 7th. the first scapper came into my mind was Zhi Lun. he was helping me throughout. as Nina was leaving PJ.. i had to kinda do o2 programme 'myself'.. so it was obviously kinda stress for me la. especially when its my first time doing such a major planning. hey! we'r talkin about ORIENTATION CAMP man. its one of the highlights of JC, mugger life. so yar. it MUST be fun n enjoyable. n when welco was left with 4 people.. its not helping! n the worst thing was that 2 of them are in Friendship Day comm. which means.. o2 progco had only me n Zhi Lun! luckily.. he didnt pangseh. n was with me when we had to get this n that vetted. n when this n that got rejected.. we had to 're-think' again.. n blahs. Thanks for not leaving, Zhi Lun!
n for thr 7th. yup. u've guess it. its Shawn. although he's olwaz filled with nonsense and rubbish. its his 'serious at work' attitude that helped me developed so much and enabled myself to learn so much things. his experience at event programming certainly helped. n his unselfishness to share it with me n pass the 'skills' to me.. its really much appreciated. he could have not thought me anything extra. he could have just taught me the basic programming stuffs. but he didnt.. he shared all he knew. Thanks Shawn!
alrite. now all those whom i wanna thank.. this gonna get a little bored for some people but... =]
to i5- Zhi Lun, Lewis, Teo Huei, Wilfred: i really had fun with u guys.. if i were to go through SCAP without u people, SCAP's just gonna be such a boring thingy to me i guess. all the laughters of us will be missed ! =( will not go person by person alrite. anyway. we know how important we are to each other huh.. south park rocks? hehe. oh hey. im waiting for our cheer to come out.. start thinking idiots.. =)
to PehGek, Priscilla, YanBing: somehow. i duno in what ways. i was kinda bonded with u people. espcially when we were in diff comm. pubco?welco? haha. no link! but blahs. thanks for being there for me. n PehGek, haha. STARE at the bright side of life girl. smile more! =D n Pris, thanks for being such an 'advisor' huh. haha. n hor. hehe. SORRY for the constant retying of your hair ah. =p n ah ma, listening to my probs definately bores u yea? but thanks for listening. =)
to rest of scappers: i didnt mention yur name doesnt make u any less important to me. every single scapper stepped into my life n made an impact. if i had any conflicts with you. im truely sorry. forgive me yea? =p Thanks for making this SCAP journey such a wonderful and exciting one.
oh wait. did i miss out Mr Tong? no i didnt. save the best to the last huh? haha. wadeva. to Mr Tong:Thanks for being such a wonderful teacher n advisor to us. being able to lead us with so much ease definately showed your capability, especially when we are all so 'noob' n inexperience. i've learnt sooo much from you. not only in the area of planning n leading. i've learnt how to handle relations better. u were right during our 'graduation assembly'. we are bound to learn some stuffs from this journey. n all these would not have happened without you ard. Thank you.

Thanks scappers and teachers.

smiles! =D =) =]

torn

Wednesday, March 21, 2007

hello...

this song kinda just expressed my feeling or rather mood today. sigh. dont know y. today im so bothered. haix.

did i make the right decision to stay in council? will i excel more if im in basketball? im not trying to say im super pro in bball. im just questioning my own decision. sigh. a few stuff happening at Sanctuary nowadays. guess its not really very good with these problems occuring. Mr Tong asked me if i was confident with the operation of Sanctuary. n i answered YES without thinking. maybe i am wrong? duties were a little screwed here n there. im not saying its scappers fault. it was my fault. some of the scappers had to attend remedial when they are supposed to do their duty. so yar.. resulting in the mini 'lack of man power' at Sanctuary. n then next.. as the j2s are having common tests at the hall.. people had to keep quiet at the Sanctuary. n then i didnt thought of that la. so it was very noisy up there. n i myself was watchin movie. sigh. i guess we got complaint. n people are not complying with rules. playing cards n people stayin inside the counter. haix. guess im just a bad leader.
maybe i'll be better off in basketball. even if im not in the team. i guess at least i wont be facing these problems. i'll be still happily dribbling the ball. running here n there. getting my body fit. n whatever..

not only these. been bothered by my CHEMISTRY. im like so freaking noob in it can? haix. cant even solve the simple tutorials.. how am i going to take A's?! damn. guess. im dumb. sighs. at first i was still thinkin about focusing on phy n math. since they'r more difficult. but now. i dont know if im still right. chem is killing me! n the worst thing is i dont have the self discipline to work hard n cover these. n geog too. am i coping with it? im not sure.. will econs serve me better? im a little struggling with geog now. is it because im not payin attention? i guess im just so used to Mr Kaan's style. now that its so different.. i need time to get use to this method. im already so use to having piles of notes from him. but now.. it seems like i gotta take down notes on my own. with the teacher in front rapping all the informations. yup. thats wad will happen in uni as well.. so i guess i just need time to get use to these.
oh. maybe all these problems are because i still haven get use to the style of learning in a junior college? sighs. i dont know.
or maybe i'll be better off in a poly? am i making the right decisions? seems like im questioning all my decisions lately. this is not healthy. haix. poly?

take me away .. im suffering.
bye.

torn

Sunday, March 18, 2007

ello.

okays. shall not think about the stuffs at the previous entry le. everythings over. today gonna be a brand new day!

alrite. came out with sanctuary duty list last night. gotta inform people on duty later in the day. all the comm heads n mexco are doing double slots. each slot got 2 people and its 1h. so people.. please come for your allocated duty okays.. take this as a last 'event' for SCAP. but well. it is.. SCAP will officially after week 1. there'll be no more things related to SCAP liao. sighs. duno if im suppose to b sad or happy la.. sad bcos the thing tat bond so many of us together.. will end. n happy bcos i'll be less busy liao. or rather. i'll be free after this. nothing else to do with SCAP le..

sighs. duno la. dun care. memories from it will nber b forgotten. experience gotten from it will always be shared.

oh ya. tat time when i was talkin about o2. i fergot to mention about the 1.5 day of leadership course. i guess its more like a character development course bahs.. but it definately help mi develop my personality. now im more aware of my surrounding. im more aware of wad i shld b taking care of. its not only about leading others tat matters. everyone is important. n communication is a must have. its only thru communication tat allows a team to bond well n work well.. its everybody's effort!

take care.
sighs.

torn

Saturday, March 17, 2007

hi..

sighs. heard bad things. again. n its the same old stuff. me being flirt again..

if its bcos im with this few girls recently.. its really so wth. been playin with them bcos im good friends with them! n another reason bcos im so playful ! rahh.. which part of my face doesnt show u tat im playful.. can someone please enlighten me?

blahs. wadeva. i had enough of it. im not gonna care. tats me. the playful person. if u'r still havin the same thought. den i got nth to sae.. blahs.

n to the girl. im sorry. i didnt want things to turn out this way. i could have cool it down. but i didnt. its my fault. i guess its just better off this way.. the longer we stretch. i guess the harder the impact of pain will go. guess this sound like any other words a guy would say. but its from me. i meant this. im sorry for rushin things. making things like this isnt n never ever part of the whole thingy.. all i can sae now is, Sorry.
friends yea? =] cya ard in school. A's arriving anytime. jiayou!

torn

Wednesday, March 14, 2007

ello people!

woohoo. first of all. haha. sorry. not been updating. cos been scapping all day long for that period of time. haha. so very lazy da blog. anyway. u people will read till sian also.. haha. so yeap!

okay. lets get this started. hmm. o2's done n over. i wuld say generally not tat bad. at least. it was beta than i thought it would be. i cant really compare to o1 bcoz in o1. im a participant. o2. im the organiser. its 2 different experience.. so yar cant compare. but definately.. o1's more fun.. o2 not far off i guess! haha.. it cant be tat bad since we r organising yar? woooo! =] blahs..
as the prog ic. well. prog kept changing as told beforehand by Mr Tong. he's definately right on that.. okays. but i guess prog was alrite.. just tat we overrun for awhile everydae. haha. but i guess it was okay la. aint tat bad. n campfire. hmmm... quite a few bad. n quite a few good stuffs i guess. bad things were tat we didnt prepare the logistics until the morning!? tats crap la. but luckily we manage da get the things fast enough. thanks Zhi Lun and Yang Yi.
good stuffs... err. we were able da chnge the prog smoothly without anything going wrong. credit to the emcees too. so yea. thanks Nazri and Pei En. n nxt up. most importantly. wad will be the campfire without the AV crews.. THANKS ALOT.. all the smooth running of the clan performance and the microphones n wadeva.. thanks alot alot. i understand y Mr Tong sae its the 2nd respected cca by him liao. =] thanks everyone.

okay. next.. myself? had a fever the day before yesterday. it was 39.3.. i was feelin rather hot. so i just out of curosity..went to check my tempreture. n diao.. i had a shock can.. i haven had such a high fever since i know how to read '1234' la.. omg. its pretty crazy.
flooded myself with ice bags n ice bags n ice bags. haha. its pretty shiok..
n luckily i manage da recover the next day. went out with scappers!

went to kbox! haha. went to the one at cine. i tell you.. its fun n shiok singing la.. haha. at first. i was still quite ill la.. with my slight fever n that irritatin throat. but somehow. i manage da recover.. n at the end.. i was shouting with everyone can.. wooohoo! dui mian de nu hai kan guo lai.. kan guo lai.. kan guo lai.. zhe li de biao yan hen jing zai.. jing bu yao jia zhuang bu li bu chai.. woohooo! ah nu rocks la! =]

alrite. serious stuffs now. hmm. decided to stay in council. so yar. i'll be running for the 8th council. people. please vote for me okays.. blahs. alrite. chose for future instead of interest. but i swear i'll manage my time properly so that i'll have time for bball too. i hope im making the right choice. i'll stick by this decision anyway. part of life i guess. i tink i mention in one of my entries.. as we grow older.. there'll be more choices we have to make. there'll be more decisions we have to make. there'll be more chances for us to choose the life we want. n we'll take on from our choices, decisions n move on with life.. n yar.. there'll finally be a time when we *touchwood* make a wrong decision. n then we'll learn from tat n not make tat mistake.. n blahs..
sighs. scap's ending. guess i bonded with scappers beta with my classmates or og mates. made alot of friends with scap. even good buds.. the idiots5. the super aa handphone thingy. n the 4south park. its just gonna be the perfect start to our friendship thats never gonna end. right?

n Mr Tong.. thanks for guiding us all these while. i really learnt alot from u n the 7th. its great workin with all of you. i was so right when i chose to join scap the first time round ! i wuld sae my capability of being a leader have improved. n i have developed with regards to being myself. Thanks..

will update again soon. cheers!
`ANDYtham
=]

torn