your presence made this worthwhile .
you didnt make my heartbeat stop .
instead, you took those heartbeats n breaths away .
Sunday, January 14, 2007
hey people.
hmm. was raining just now. n i got a little emo. so this is gonna b quite an emo post. it'll be quite sian. so u can skip this entry.
err. was thinkin bout the word unwanted n un-needed. i think both of these doesnt even exist. but whatever it is. n while i was thinkin. it came to my mind that i actually fit right into this 2 word. it seems to me that im always the extra. the odd one out. im always the last to be called out n stuff. maybe its my freakin attitude. people. i know i dun have a good temper. but its just that i cant control it sometimes. its in my genes. my parents n both my sis hav bad temper. but i duno y.. mine is more prominent. im always the one losing cool n crapping all over. as if the whole world owes me money. i always regret after that okays.. especially darr kia. my temper seems the least to him. i duno y. after i hung up. i always feels sorry. i really am alrite. but i duno how to apologise especially when it is done. dun cry over spilled milk?? yup. but im tryin my best now to learn alrite.. just like what i told fahrun. i'll learn to be patient ! not everything in this world will go your way. we just gotta make the best out of what we have.. complaining wont change things. it'll just make matters worst. i gotta get this right into my head!
i think this is not the first time im sayin all these. but it just doesnt seems da get into my head. so i think i jsut gotta repeat it all over again n again so that i will really change! these shortcomings ( is it this word? ) is really causing me alot of problems. its somehow the barrier for me to make new friends? i duno how to say it. its something lidat de. my english need improvements! damn. i guess im just dumb. nothing seems to make me understand stuffs. im still the small young kid i use to be. totally rely on other people. when can i learn to be independant?! i need to learn that fast. i think i need to find some time to eat alone outside myself. buy things i need myself. sigh. its never to be.
im gettin quite random. whatever. gotta go. wanna start doing my physics homework n revise a little on my math. din really pay attention to the lecture the other time.
am i really going to a junior college... will i be able to handle it?
bye.
torn
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