your presence made this worthwhile .
you didnt make my heartbeat stop .
instead, you took those heartbeats n breaths away .
Thursday, March 27, 2008
heys..
Steven Curtis Chapman-Cinderella http://youtube.com/watch?v=BUk5SZ18WhY
couldnt find the imeem version. so no choice but to put youtube. its very nice. at least for my mood now.
sigh. got back a few results. im dead. the supposed to be easiest paper, phy. i failed. S. 40 flat. i dont know wtf happened. no chance to go thru the paper.. only counted the marks.. n the tcher wants it back. maths. got D. im alright with it since i didnt really study THAT hard.. gp. got U. a very very very bad U. damn. so much for being english now man. fuck. i know i'll fail.. but i din expect it to be this bad. this is real bad. chem. im not even interested in getting it man. prob gonna be worst than my gp ? tat is how bad it'll be.
this is the WORST result i've EVER achieve in my 12 years of education. 14 if u include kindergarden 1 and 2. freaking hell ! yeah. i know the reason. obviously. bcos of my laziness. i did study during march hol. wait. i mug-ged. i really did. okays. except for 1 or 2 days.. but the rest of the hol. i really buried myself with notes.
after collecting our phy paper back. the tcher told us about her disappointment. after which she showed us this on the visualiser: "Are you ready to register for A levels?" i got freak out. i swear. "silence" visited my class for 30s. i never knew my class could be this quiet. its real scary.
bcos of that. my mind went BLANK. stoned at canteen for awhile before i went home. since i dont know when was the last time i got home at 3pm. perhaps this is the first. sigh. on the com once i got home. at the screen where im supposed to sign in.. i stoned there for 5min. before i pressed "Turn Off Computer" i forgot what happened in that 5min. i only rmb i sat on the chair n stare at the com.
"Are you ready to register for A levels?" perhaps. this is the first time in my life that im so worried for my studies. even for O's.. im not this scared man. there was poly. at the worst? but now. once i flung A's. my life is OFFICIALLY SCREWED. like seriously screwed this time.
oh yea. EMO people dont say it out. so if im spilling this out to the world, since this blog is on a World Wide Web. does this mean im not THAT emo? haha. perhaps....
"Are you ready to register for A levels?"
torn
Monday, March 24, 2008
hellos.
2 ~ 3 weeks since i last entered this screen. common test is over. flung-ing it. probably gonna drop down to j1. sigh. only confident of passing physics? which is definitely not good. cos im gonna fail everything else. badly.
oh! i got B for A's chinese. crap. what happened to ace-ing it thru my life?! ah well. emo-ed. its over. there's more for me to ponder upon.. like PW which we shld be getting soon. AND. duhh.. A level. in 1.5 yrs time?
pool lost to man u last night. 3-0 definitely not what the result should be. 'lucky' decided to visit ferguson. ref spoiled the game. totally. both yellow for masch were unnecessary. torres got whacked n everything. sightly injured. hopefully he'll recover in time for derby !!
amazing race is coming real soon! response are great i think. yeah! =) so yup. those who get to participate.. look forward to 12 April man! im excited for it also.. haha. duhhh.... but bcos of this. my nxt consecutive 3 saturdays are burnt. damn. this week. recce with hse capts and teachers. nxt week. recce with station masters. 12April. "Pioneer: Need For Speed"
so yup. thats a quick/rough update of what happened n whats to come in near future.
now.
back to my last post.
sighs.
like. infatuation. love. i guess i really mixed them up. someone tell me what exactly is in my brain?! a frien told me some stuff. for once.. i hope tat frien of mine is wrong. i dont know why. but im feeling... afraid. scared.
n i lost the string thingy. im sorry. perhaps its really a sign for me to let everything go. its been long. n this time, i really mean long. for all the memories it held.. its time to say goodbye?
on a positive note.. its a sign for me to get other stuff for myself! =)
alrights. im done. lazy to continue already. guess its a long enough post. or a crappy one.
whatever.
clock says: "Andy, its already 1130! time for bed!" notes says: "Andy, we miss you!" Andy says: "ahhh! screw life and i want my nano!"
for a frien of mine: "The past is finished. There is nothing to be gained by going over it. Whatever it gave us in the experiences it brought us was something we had to know." - Rebecca Beard
for Andy: "I never ran 1000 miles. I could never have done that. I ran one mile 1000 times." - Stu Mittleman "To succeed...You need to find something to hold on to, something to motivate you, something to inspire you." - Tony Dorsett "Good night, good night! Parting is such sweet sorrow." - William Shakespeare
where is my motivation.......
torn
Sunday, March 09, 2008
hihi.
now the fcuk is happening to my life. n i thought its going on well.
council stuff is cooled down alr. studies are on the way.
now i dun need to freakin hav another prob to my life man.
i just wanna study peacefully for my common tests now.
so.
life goes on.
torn
WANTS;
great A's results!!
trucks of cash!
new computer!
Haagen Daaz!
shirts!
pants!
smiles!