Tuesday, October 30, 2007
hello.
count down begins!
10more days.
maybe i should consider spending all the nights at esplanade.
been long since i visit the durian.
god knows what happened the last time i visited tat place.
=)
so yar.
need the emo session there i guess.
need to clear out all the emo feelings inside me. somehow.
feelings n emotions r rather mixed these days.
as in like.. it can be good for now.
n the next moment.. i'll be sitting there listening to my nano.
mood SWINGS darn easily.
n of course. any small matters can make me rather emo, angry, vexed..
n all this can just happen within a minute.
n seriously.
i dun wanna retain!
n its like i've wasted 2007.
oh wait. i read something somewhere tat mentioned something tats like:
no matter what happens.. u must not tell yourself tat u have wasted time n regret. u have definitely gained something from this time.
i wonder how many people understand tat. but im sorry for my bad english. just try n understand alright..
so yar..
look back at what i've gained:
definitely friendship.. wouldnt be so gay now if not for the past 6months plus..
studies wise? hmmm. tats gonna be a big question mark i would say.
this is where i've failed myself?
i guess la.
studies was suppose to be my priority.
but what happened?
fun replaced it.
my uncle told me that its alright to play. as long as i divide the time properly. n when i wanna play. i should play without worries. and thus, when it comes to studies. i must be serious n give my 110percent to study.
i always live by this. but maybe i edit it slightly?
n yar. no prize for having the correct ans.
obviously. i didnt give my 110percent when it comes to studies.
n since i've chose to come to a jc. i guess 110percent is not enough.
gettin CCC aint gonna help you to get into a local uni.
people are getting smarter.. n standards r rising fast.
i cant live in the past n believe that CCC is gonna get me into uni.
cos its no longer the case now !
damn.
i gotta
FACE THE REALITY !
aaahhhhh ....
okays. 10days left. im gonna work hard if i get promoted.
i dont care if im gonna do tat alone.
or to pangseh anyone.
ah. i'll try.
=)
but seriously..
i must start working hard should i get promoted.
promoting without foundation is just like committing suicide.
n obviously. my foundation sucks big time.
j2 will be a very fast year.
n i cant even cope with what im having now..
not studying is really suicidal.
i can bid my life goodbye..
so.
i must start STUDYING !
promoting means i only have to endure all these shit for 10months.
time will just fly by.
so easily.
blink 3times.
tadah..
"candidates. please place your entry proof n identification card on the top right hand corner of the desk."
tats all for now.
till the next time.
byebyes.
hit hard by reality.
its
painful !
torn
Wednesday, October 24, 2007
hi.
so everyone got back their results.
some r happy. some r emo. some felt unjustified?
i dont know. guess everyone is just having mix feelings?
ah well. at least for me.
so yar.. talkin to the gays now.
gone r the days when we joke around. play the shit out of ourselves.
all of us r hit by reality. n i mean hit hard.
n IF we'r getting promoted..
i guess we really have to study.
we have too much to catch up man..
n yup. worried about our A's..
bcos there's no point getting DDD.
gets you nowhere in singapore.
n so we'r all blasting emo songs.
classic, pop, rock..
maybe its really time when we need to reflect on what we have done.
told mum my results.. n she was pretty alright with it.
she was telling me that its okay if i gave my best shot.
"but did i ?"
this question been running inside my brain for the past 24hrs.
before promos. i told myself i'll study hard for it.
yar. i did tat.
but was it too late? yes it is.
i got back what i deserved. no complains..
im not gonna think about the decision i made to enter a jc.
tat will be just an excuse for myself.
to run away from the fact that....
i did NOT gave my best.
i rmb Mrs Tan or Mr Yeo said before..
people will go to them after promos n swear vow that they'll work extra hard if they get promoted.
yar. now i understand y. n they'r not lying.
i probably need to do tat.
but hey! am i really gonna work hard?
given time.. will i really sit down n mug?
or will i spend it by playing pool?
damn. i hav too many questions to ans.
seriously..
im just doubting myself.
but im not stupid.
i know i can do it..
just like everyone else.
the fact tat we got the kind of results during o's
shows tat we do hav something in us.
im just lazy.
wait. im not having any prejudice against other people alrite..
n im not saying tat im clever.
so yar.. recieving alot of songs from Larry. all the emo screamos..
maybe im too used to my mp3.
its not emo enough.
maybe all i need is sleep.
bye all.
"Disenchanted" - My Chemical Romance
Well I was there on the day
They sold the cause for the queen,
And when the lights all went out
We watched our lives on the screen.
I hate the ending myself,
But it started with an alright scene.
It was the roar of the crowd
That gave me heartache to sing.
It was a lie when they smiled
And said, "you won't feel a thing"
And as we ran from the cops
We laughed so hard it would sting
Yeah yeah, oh
If I'm so wrong (so wrong, so wrong)
How can you listen all night long? (night long, night long)
Now will it matter after I'm gone?
Because you never learn a goddamned thing.
You're just a sad song with nothing to say
About a life long wait for a hospital stay
And if you think that I'm wrong,
This never meant nothing to ya
I spent my high school career
Spit on and shoved to agree
So I could watch all my heroes
Sell a car on tv
Bring out the old guillotine
We'll show 'em what we all mean.
Yeah yeah, oh
If I'm so wrong (so wrong, so wrong)
How can you listen all night long? (night long, night long)
Now will it matter long after I'm gone?
Because you never learn a goddamned thing.
You're just a sad song with nothing to say
About a life long wait for a hospital stay
And if you think that I'm wrong,
This never meant nothing to ya
So go, go away, just go, run away.
But where did you run to? And where did you hide?
Go find another way, price you pay
Woah, Woah, Woah, Woah, Woah, Woah
You're just a sad song with nothing to say
About a life long wait for a hospital stay
And if you think that I'm wrong,
This never meant nothing to ya, come on
You're just a sad song with nothing to say
About a life long wait for a hospital stay
And if you think that I'm wrong,
This never meant nothing to ya
At all, at all, at all, at all
torn
Thursday, October 18, 2007
i am BORED !
n.
im really turning gay.
n.
my english is improving.
haha.
why am i always pressing enter?
n twice?
oh crap. i haven fix the board.
n that retarded dee dee dee who destroyed the board.
you are so so so CHILDISH.
damn !
but well..
guess u need the excitement in your life?
im still bored.
what can i do ?
watch vcd again?
aahhh.....
i miss dunearn.
byebye.
torn
Monday, October 08, 2007
hello !
wow ! this is really long.. near 1 month?
yup. its 3weeks. haha.
alrite .. so an general update of Andy's life:
promos has ENDED !
the wonderful story came to an end.
inter house games is gone!
desire for shopping n GOING OUT is cleared..
so yup. tats wad i hav been doing for the past 3weeks.
tats how boring life is..
but well..
ihg was fun fun fun !
though i wanted to give up halfway through.
that sleep on the bench was really NEEDED man !
not cool to be under the HOT sun for the entire morning.
oh wait. guess i shun complain so much since we only need to play 2 games. while the rest gotta play 3..
ihg taught me something. important as a lifeskill. n thanks to the team who made me learnt this.
n oh ya.. wanted to accompany hisham to fast.. but gave up halfway. couldn't take it anymore. i dun wanna faint because of dehydration. haha. it'll be super embarrassing. n oh ya! talkin about it.. calf cramped near the end of the game. im really sorry to waste everyone's time! super super paiseh la.. everyone was so eager to fight till the last moment.. n then i stopped them.. sorrysorry !
n oh ya.. polo won something ! like since i duno how long.. so yup. im happy ! or shld i say i felt satisfaction !
ah well..
so next is MT A's.. is at the end of this month. n obviously.. im not studyin for it. YET. i'll study for it !! i must get a A !! =)
n there's still OP.. pretty much done. just that we need to go through the technique and practice. this will probably occupy me till early november.
after these... guess there'll be some council work? not too sure.. then sis wedding. then JAPAN TRIP ! wahhaha!
gonna miss out on obs due to the japan trip. sigh!!! i wanna go obs ! damn..
blahs.
running.
oh ya. the new song by jay chou is quite nice.
haha. just got to know this song.. at class blog.
BYE !Labels: smiles all over
torn